Yes, it’s true! I decided ( ok nothing new, my friends know that I wanted this a few weeks ago but failed miserable) to quit smoking. And to make things harder – yes, as someone said to me, I’m a masochist- I don’t use anything to replace the nicotine ( no patches, no gum etc)
For those that never smoked in their life, it will appear strange how you cannot quit easily.
EASY TO QUIT? NEVER!
Nicotine is a drug, and the withdrawal can be painful and a bit like a crazy period for the unfortunates!
So starting Monday morning I said: OK this is it, no more cigars! And so the small hell began!
Day 1
Up until around 12 it was ok, a bit sluggish, foggy brain but relatively ok. By 4PM my brain started to talk to me.
Brain:“Hey you, what’s the deal, no cigar?
Me: “Nope sorry we are non smokers starting today!”
Brain: “You’re joking!”
ME: “Nope”
And so it began. By night my brain was crying, I was moving in slow motion, went to bed at 9PM like never in my life.
Day 2
Woke up with a screaming brain: “Smoke, smoke, smoke!”… me “Nope, forget it!”. The longest day in my life (not even the exams days where not that long). What nobody ever tells you when you start smoking is that: you are free to smoke, but not give up on them! Otherwise no one would smoke!
Day 3.
Worst yet. 7AM almost got up crying. My brain started to threaten me!
Brain: “Hey you! If we don’t smoke today, I will shut down!”
Me: “Sorry, forget about it… we don’t smoke anymore , and this is the nicotine devil talking. You don’t need to smoke to function!
Brain: “Wanna bet?”
Guess what I was doing at 12PM(while normal people where at work ?). Sleeping, brain got a general error, restart was needed. And the same went whole day.
Day 4.
Started to get a bit better. Got up early, managed to get some things done! Brain was still crying in the background but at least it was not shutting down on me. Silent otherwise. But, off the record… I found it hard to concentrate on anything, like someone discovered that night ( when in a serious discussion, I started to talk like: look what a nice sky).. Sorry about that :D.
Day 5
Almost had one. I say almost because I didn’t and I’m proud of it…. My brain still is mad at me but he will get over it!
Day 6-7
The BIG first actual test! Being surrounded by a group (around 9-10 people) of smokers for 16-18 hours is my version of HELL.
Picture this: You are working on quitting and you still dream of smoking and puffing all that smoke out, in –out, in-out….and of course you get stuck in a car for 2 hours with 2 smokers…
I have killed them in my head at least 100 times in those 2 hours ,but since one of them was the driver I couldn’t kill him – I still value my life too much to risk it that way.(PS: sorry guys for the EVIL thoughts, it was the nicotine devil asking me to doing :D).
So for over 16 hours with 10 people that where smoking, and smoking …and puffing…I rose above…and didn‘t smoke at all… (I’m patting myself on the head)…
So my smoking friends if you want to quit smoking, first of all get prepared to all the bad stuff (your brain won’t quit nagging you, bad disposition, low energy level etc).
I hope that I won’t succumb again to the nicotine, so, to all out there, keep your fingers crossed for me!
